The morning after still surprises me.
I woke up to being tightly protected by muscles and the aroma of a man. I looked over and he was still asleep, as if he were busy the entire night. I gingerly stepped out of bed and proceeded cautiously to the kitchen, trying to avoid making any unnecessary noise. You know, Kadeem has never been the type to clean up messes, his own or others, so when I walked into the kitchen I was completely astonished. The kitchen was extremely spotless, the food was put away, the dishes were washed, dried, and placed in their respectable places, the countertop was wiped down of any debris, and the floors were swept. It felt refreshing to have someone else do for you, that you've been doing by yourself for years. My mouth began to water for some cinnamon-sugary taste of Cap'n Crunch and coconut milk. I decided to be nice and bring brotha man a bowl to wake up to. I find myself just always watching and admiring him. Maybe, this is just a way of me trying to understand his motives. I really cannot fathom why he's here right now, out of the blue. Ya know, asides from the fact that I rang his line, but its just why is he back in general. After breakfast, an awkward silence possessed the two of us and it forced difficult questions to be asked. Finally it came out, "If you were not ready to be married, why are you here now? Why are you wasting my time, again?" Again, this rage took over me but this time, I refused to let tears take control of the wheel. Of course, the "I'm a dumb ass" look was plastered over his face. His inability to give me an answer, even after waiting minutes for another round of awkward silence to pass, prompted me to kick his tail out. The hooting and the hollering was not going to win me over this time and neither was his sorry ass sob story. Rule 6: Lasting love is forgiveness as well as effort to do better. But if negative actions are continuous, leave them.
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Camay
1/23/2018 03:23:00 pm
The impact the message has on me. Wow. I'm dealing with a brotha with the same issue only thats one of many we have.
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