Bruh. WHY. She has this hold on me and honestly, I don’t know why. I’ve been doing me. I can’t have sex with enough girls to forget her. Every girl I meet has to have qualities of her, but we both know we are bad for each other…so why? I told her I was free later on this week. I make sure my place is spotless, made sure theres no evidence of any female lingering, made sure there were no marks left on my body…if she’s coming all the way over here, she possibly wants something, right?
Friday finally arrives and so does she. Wow, after not seeing or hearing from her for months, I really forgot what a beauty she was. She gave me a hug, and damn did she smell good; it was a light and lusty warm vanilla. I had to control myself, I know its been a while. So we’re sitting and talking and everything felt so comfortable, this is what I missed. She said she’ll prepare dinner and I just sat there and watched her. I don’t know man, I felt this surge of feelings for her hit me in my gut. We head to the dining room to eat and to talk. She does this awkward thing where she sits far from me and okay..here comes the bullshit. She tells me she’s done her hardest to forget me and she knows I’ve done the same. But, it seems like the universe thwarted every attempt that came her way. She tells me that despite all of our efforts, we just hurt each other in the end…if we meant all of this to each to each other why couldn’t we get it right? I guess I couldn’t give her an answer fast enough, so she got up and left. As her presence left me for good, I was left speechless; her entity stole every last word that my mouth could have possibly uttered. Rule 5: not everything lasts, its okay. Just allow yourself to understand that
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