A few months breeze by and I notice that my happiness isn’t constant. Drinking allows me to temporarily forget that maybe, just maybe I lost the best thing that could have ever happened to me. I cannot find any sort of solace in this moment. Bad habits become second nature to me, “Why couldn’t I just tell her that she was what I wanted, that she was what I consider to be everything that a woman should be.” Was I afraid of actually admitting it to her or was I afraid of actually committing again? This life style isn’t all that its cracked up to be. The females satisfy you for the moment, but to have someone who is there, day in and day out is truly a blessing. I just allowed mine to just up and leave my life. Hopefully this will all make sense soon…
Rule #6 timing is everything. trust what universe is doing. TRUST ME, it might now seem like things don’t make sense, but remember the universe is preparing YOU for your future
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