It's been a month since that incident and in between that time we were trying to heal but nothing was working in our favor. We parted our ways peacefully, I couldn't allow myself to get back into a relationship with someone who could hurt me so selfishly. I deserve more because I am worth way more. It hurts when you think you're in love and then you are forced to call quits for whatever external reason. But it's been a month. I think about him from time to time in a positive light but at the end of it all memories will only be that--memories.
You know when a female gets her heartbroken she focuses on school, or whatever she should have been prioritizing? Yeah that's me. I've added so many extra hours into finishing this book and studying in grad school. It feels amazing to focus on me, and me only. But I won't lie, the loneliness eats at me like vultures on the carcass of a dead animal. It hurts, but this pain is only temporary. This too shall pass and its important where I place my energy. Things have been going well for me, I pray for him everyday because you have to pray for the weak. Rule #6: it's important to put yourself first. You cannot love someone if you don't love yourself. Basic law of attraction, what you put out into the universe, is what you will receive. Always stay positive for yourself and others.
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